Wednesday, May 30, 2012

self-publishing and self-doubt

Having decided to self-publish some of my personal, literary work on the Amazon Kindle, I've been struggling with something that seemed like less of an issue in traditional publishing: self-doubt.  Before putting Suck Nectar Vomit Honey and Within Our Bones up on Kindle, my main approach to getting my poetry and fiction in front of an audience was publication in literary journals.  It takes a lot of work to get something published in a literary journal--a long time ago I heard that the average submission got rejected 16 times before finding a home, and I wouldn't be surprised if the average is a lot higher than that now--but at least, when your poem or short story does get accepted, that acceptance carries with it the implication of some sort of approval.  When you self-publish, you're on your own.  And so putting up intimate, personal work, work where you dig deep to expose emotions and experiences and ideas that are crucially important to you, can become an exercise in agonizing self-doubt.  It's made all the worse by the fact that potentially millions of people can read your stuff once you put it up on Kindle--as opposed to the old literary journal model, where chances are only a few thousand copies of the issue with your work would be printed.  So I've been squirming a bit, recently, worrying that someone I know would pick up a copy of my poetry or story collection, see my intimate thoughts, condemn me as some disgusting little monster, and I won't be able defend myself with the excuse that "I didn't publish it, the editor did.  She's the one that thinks it's worth publishing."

Monday, May 21, 2012

Suck Nectar free weekend results


The free weekend for SUCK NECTAR VOMIT HONEY on Kindle is over. At its best, my collection reached #1 for free downloads in the 20th Century Poetry section, and #23 for free downloads of any poetry book. Both of those heights were reached on the first day, which was a Friday, and I think they resulted from about 25 downloads in a eight hour period. Saturday and Sunday were much slower days for downloads, and the total number of downloads had only reached 38 by the end of the free weekend.

I haven't done enough free-day drives to come to definite conclusions, but I have noticed certain commonalities amongst this free weekend and free days I've done with other titles I've got up on Kindle: most of the downloads came on Fridays, and most of the downloads came when the title was fresh on the board. If you're interested in putting your own work on Kindle, and trying to promote it with free days, that bolded info might be of interest to you.

Of course, this drive wont do much good unless it results in Amazon reviews for SUCK NECTAR. If you're one of the people who downloaded it, please consider writing a review. Thanks.

Friday, May 18, 2012

Suck Nectar free on Kindle this weekend

Quick reminder: the Kindle eBook version of my poetry collection SUCK NECTAR VOMIT HONEY is available for free download this weekend. Please download a copy! And if you like it, please put up a review!

Here's the teaser:

"Ranging in tones from tortured to exultant, referencing poets from Blake to Bukowski, and covering topics as varied as garden fauna, Buddhism, and unprotected sex, SUCK NECTAR VOMIT HONEY is a vivid ember of a collection. Sometimes the poems burn slow, sometimes they flare bright, in every case they leave a mark. Read it and you'll never see earthworms, black coffee, or public restrooms in the same way again."

And here's a link to the Amazon page:

Suck Nectar Vomit Honey.


(Just before posting this, I checked the Amazon Kindle poetry bestsellers page, and SUCK NECTAR is currently at #28 of the top 100 free books list, side by side with Bukowski's LOVE IS A DOG FROM HELL on the purchase side. Nice book to be put next to, I must say.)

Friday, May 11, 2012

Suck Nectar Vomit Honey now on Kindle


My poetry collection SUCK NECTAR VOMIT HONEY is now available on Kindle. It's available for $2.99, or you can download a copy for free next weekend, Friday May 18th through Sunday May 20th. If you don't have a kindle but still want to read it, you can buy a PDF at the Steady Press website. And, since I'm trying to spread the word, if you're willing to mention it on your blog, or to post an Amazon review, I'll send you a PDF for free. Email me: mcmfs [at] yahoo [dot] com.

Here's the blurb:

Ranging in tones from tortured to exultant, referencing poets from Blake to Bukowski, and covering topics as varied as garden fauna, Buddhism, and unprotected sex, SUCK NECTAR VOMIT HONEY is a vivid ember of a collection. Sometimes the poems burn slow, sometimes they flare bright, in every case they leave a mark. Read it and you'll never see earthworms, black coffee, or public restrooms in the same way again.

The collection has 47 poems, including "sick fish", which won the Autumn Letters Best of Word 2010 prize and doesn't seem to appear on their website anymore, and "object", which was widely viewed on the Word Riot website. Give it a look.